Goodbye

Yesterday I had to let go of a friend whom I’ve known for about 8 years.

She had been there for me, everywhere I went. She was there for me when I was happy, when I was sad, angry…. She was the one who took me around KL and we’d always end up getting lost together. She was my constant companion and she didn’t get jealous whenever I asked other friends to come along. She never judged me and let me be who I wanted to be, although at times it was hard for her to catch up.

But as with friends, no matter how close, we had our ups and downs. She’d act up on me when she got moody and I’d get pissed off at her whenever she didn’t do what she was supposed to do. Especially when I’d spent so much on her over the years.

After a while, she’d be ok and then we’d be the best of friends again but she’d get into her moods and I’d be upset with her all over again. I admit that there were times when I gave her a hard time – I can be demanding and impatient. Then again, I knew she had spunk and she’d prove it to me so it was only coz I knew she had potential that I was a lil hard on her. She and I were both chillipadis..

But now that friendship has come to a close.

I knew the day was coming… we both did, but we acted as if it wasn’t. I suddenly began to appreciate all the things that she had done for me, how she came through when I needed her.. how she came through for my friends as well. And she didn’t act up on me and in fact was so agreeable to everything I wanted her to do. I felt heavy-hearted as I realized I was paying for her last drink. 

Before I drove away, I took one last look at her.. tears welling up as I walked around her.. thinking how we had gone through so much in the time I’d known her and that it was coming to an end. I didn’t expect to get so attached to her…

I can’t help but feel guilty that the day I said goodbye, was the same day I replaced her with someone else. It had to be done, I know, but I feel like I’m almost betraying my friend. Oh well… people come and go.. and so do cars… but Cherry will always be more than just a car to me...

Goodbye, my friend. Hope you'll find another one soon...